And So It Begins…
[Previous Rural Farmgirl, April 2009 – May 2010]
Okay, first things first. Some of you asked me to post my goal board, so I wanted to make sure that I did that. It has been fun going back over the pictures and taking stock. I can’t believe where I am compared to where I was two years ago as far as meeting my dreams and goals.
I also can’t believe it is already three weeks into the New Year. Of course, another year brings new goals, new dreams, and new frontiers to conquer. I have always been a dreamer, but I have not always been great at setting goals for myself. I suppose I was afraid I’d be disappointed if I couldn’t reach them, uncertain about my own abilities. Somehow, when I turned 40, I decided that I didn’t really have anything to lose by setting goals, and almost magically, I was no longer afraid of failing. I got tired of feeling as if I was watching life pass me by, that I wasn’t really steering it into the direction I wanted it to go. I had failed to live consciously, feeling more as I was being tossed around instead of steering my own life. When I decided to take control of my life, the boards gave me a place to focus my energies.
This year many of my goals have to do with health. I have been an avid reader and student of holistic health, so it isn’t as if I don’t have the necessary knowledge. I even know some amazing people in the holistic industry. I wouldn’t even say that I lack conviction, since I strongly believe the things I have learned. Therefore, this is the year that, I intend to walk into integrity by walking the walk. So, it goes up on the board.. I have it represented by pictures of some of my favorite holistic nutrition books, books like Healing with Whole Foods by Paul Pitchford and Let Food Be Thy Medicine by Alex Jack, books by Ann Wigmore and Viktoras Kulvinskas, and You Don’t Have to be Sick by Rev George Malkmus.
I have begun to put this into practice by joining the local gym. One of my girlfriends managed to rally our little group together and convince us to join the gym’s “biggest loser” contest. I don’t know if I would have ever jumped into this all by myself, as I couldn’t really see myself in the local gym, but I have really enjoyed it. I am learning so much. Fortunately, we were placed on a team (I am on the yellow team), and on my team are people who are knowledgeable about strength training and weights and cardio, all the things that I am not knowledgeable about in the least. I am doing things that I didn’t even know I could do, like Latin dancing, yoga and running on the treadmill.
I have also found it true that misery loves company. Well, maybe misery is the wrong word to use, since I am not really miserable. I have been sore and I have really felt like a fish out of water, but I haven’t been miserable. I have, however, been thankful that I have a group of friends who heard me when I said I needed to get this health thing under control, and they stepped up for me with their wallets and their time, and they hit the gym.
There are other things on my list. Things like not wanting to waste a moment of the time I have left with my son Cole. He’s a senior, and the next five months with him under our roof will go excessively fast. I want to finish a book that I have been working on for some time now. I want to work harder on not allowing my dyslexia to govern me. I want to spend more time really appreciating those in my life and spend more time in the moment.
The list goes on, but all of my goals have one thing in common with each other: integrity. I want to walk every day. I want what I believe, and the person I am at my core, to be evident at first glance.
Sometimes I have so much on my “to do” list that I need to have a way to keep these things in the forefront of my mind. I find that living a purpose-driven life is much more rewarding then being tossed back and forth.
So, I have decided, as I begin a new year, there is no time like the present to live life to the fullest, being all that I can be.